Tomorrow sure is another day.  I wish it would go well.  Unfortunately I am psychic.  Actually, I am not.  I know that I have exhausted my options.  That is what I came to my conclusion 2 months ago.  We upped my Paxil but I don't see a change yet.  I guess I will wait.  Ah.  FuCK!  WILL MY WHOLE LIFE BE waiting for meds to take full effect!?  I can't function properly on my own and that hurts me.  How can I ever find anyone that WANTS a broken person!?  I have to lie to everyone from now on.  I have to say, "Hey it's nice to meet you, I'm normal as fuck I hope we can have a stable life together."  

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