Update?

Things have been surprisingly more positive during the last few weeks.  I saw my mom for the first time since April.  That was better than expected.  I've been sending out resumes like junk mail.  I had an interview at the Boys and Girls Town in Columbia.  I want to work with kids and help them but these kids are "terminal"...  They will literally beat me up.  I think I want something more tame.  I want the "accessibility technician" job but I really think it's too good to be true.  It's a dream job.  I won't describe it anymore.  This text block will know if I get it.

I've been trying out online dating.  Shit sucks.  I've found one or two girls that I think are very similar to me but they don't respond.  That's fine because there are a few girls that have delved into me that I've just ignored because I wasn't interested.  That is how things work.  Yes, I think I would have great potential with these girls, but they aren't interested or have left the site.  That's totally understandable.  All I am trying to do is cast a wide net.  I am so very picky when it comes to girls that I alienate 98% of them.  Then, I feel like a creeper when I message someone online that I seem to like because I think it makes me a weirdo.  Whatevs!  I shall continue my search for now.

Ah ha!

Devil's Icebox! Bats!  I love them.  I don't want to disturb their hibernation but I just want to be near them at least when I leave.

Not sure of life

More new drugs and new doses!  Nothing is working and I'm pretty certain of my fate at this point, I just need to pull some things together first.  This isn't a life that I am comfortable with.  I'm so very tired and just want to sleep forever.