Break-Time

Christmas break. So far I am not too fond of it. I do nothing all day and I continue to do nothing all night. I hope to change this soon by heading to Saint Louis next week to party with Jeff and Dave and all those crazies. My plans so far include the following:
Tomorrow: Drive to CoMo to see Allie
Saturday: Lunch with Sonja
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Monday: X-mas hoopla
Tuesday: Drive to STL, come back Thursday
Saturday: More X-mas junk with the family
Sunday: Drive to CoMo for some crazy new years with Allie

Anyway, I'm pretty excited about next semester. Mostly because I'm joining the MU Ballroom Dance Club. I'm taking Calc 1, Bio 1500, Hist 1100, and English 1000. I gotta start destroying these classes pretty hardcore.

My mom and I were discussing future plans the other day as we usually do and I realized that I may just want to try and go to med school. I think it would be a good path considering that I cannot do research for 45 more years. Lab work is cool but it's so damn monotonous. Lately I've been fantasizing about being a trauma surgeon. I think that job would rock so hard... just have people show up that are pretty much dead and see if I could save them. That's exactly the high stress job I want. I need a crazy job like that, something that keeps me stimulated. It seems like the only route to jobs like that is through med school.... bleh. I've got a long road to haul no matter what though so I might as well start knocking out the classes. Which reminds me that over the summer I think I'm going to move to Columbia and take summer classes. Either I'll stay in summer dorms (if they exist) or I'll take out a small loan to pay for a cheap apartment. I just need to take summer classes and I need to get out of Clinton. The longer I'm here, the more I can't stand it.

Long time...

So it's been over a month since my last note. Lots has happened if I recall correctly... It snowed alot. ALOT. People have come and gone, and others have come and I hope they don't go just yet.

The semester is 5 days from being over. Finals are all that stand in my way of a month consisting entirely of boredom. I have grown so attached to my friends that I'll probably whither away over break. This is why I must spend as much time as possible away from my house. I would much rather just stay at school.

I am familiar with this type of confusion but I still lack a method of action to deal with it.

Ah, I love it.

When I am here, I am in my natural element. Sure, I may not be very good at this whole school work thing but I feel so very good. There is so much here. So much enrichment that it nearly makes mine eyes leak with joy. I am quickly becoming the person I have always wanted to be...

hedonistic and mildly successful.

Jazzy

Ah, the MU Jazz groups fucking rule. I went with the Alex/Chelsea squad to the Artisan last night to hear some bitchin' jazz and drink souls. It was so amazing. Pretty much just imagine all of your senses being tickled by the heavens. The music was euphoric, the friends were ripe and in season, the drinks were made of sex, and everything was smiles.

College reminds me of running down a hill very fastly. It's so much fun and you feel amazing but it's so very easy to trip and fall and bust your ass. Everything here is so much fun all the time but in the background is money issues, class problems, and crazy in my head.

I love this place because everyone I meet is the best at what they do from their world. It's interesting to step outside of yourself sometimes and see everyone for what they are. Everyone you see comes from a life as huge as your own. They have as many experiences as you, just different. Now, take all of the people who are amazing and best at what they do and put them in one place. All of these great personalities and talents swirl around me and it's the greatest. Everyone is brilliant and everyone awesome.

weekends

Wow...
Friday everyone went to a party at Sig Tau and it blew. We left to go chill at the dorm. Saturday was Linda and Nellie's Halloween party and I don't remember a whole bunch of it. It was lots of crazy drunken fun with drama and emotionalness. I loved to see all my old friends again.

im typeing right nwo so that i dont remember thsi night.l its has been ther greatest night ever. first i went with chelsea and april*(kate) to sigma pi and we partied and it was so fun. i had lots to drink. after that chelsea left cause this guy was all over her and then lexi and brandon left aand i stayed and then io left. on my way back to wolpers i met andrew wells which is a friend of mine from high school and i talked to him and then i got back and went with jeff, kevin, jack, and emileeeee to rancho and there was a fight. i tol d everyone athat the only thing rancho gives out is food and orgasms. i met a girl named mia wallace, like in pulp fiction and then i ate a burrito. i gave it to kevin cause i coulntf finish it. we came back to walopers and i drank with jess and nick and then i went to beddddd. it was theb est tnbight everl.

raising hell at a christian campus house pretty much rocks.

Ah, let's do this.

My job is wonderful. I don't feel like a menial task worker, I feel more like a researcher in training. There's so much that I learn everyday. The head of the research dept. I'm in fills me in all the time with lots of helpful stuff.

I hear lots of FUCK's coming from the dorms around me. That can only mean that baseball is not looking so good right now.

This weekend is homecoming. Knowing that I will be at Deja Vu on Friday keeps me awake at night. I am excited, to say the least.

I'm still failing 2 classes but kicking absolute ass in 2 others. Balances out, right?

I have a new mp3 player so now the rec center workout is mentally bearable.

My second day of work is down and I actually learned how to do something! Today Jianying showed me how to prepare agar media with and without 2% sucrose. It took a long time but it was the kind of thing that's sorta fun to do.

Grades continue to fall. I need to get my head out of my ass and start rocking faces.

I win. I am now a RESEARCH LAB ASSISTANT IN THE DIVISION OF PLANT SCIENCES AT THE MU LIFE SCIENCES CENTER.

"Shmao"

Poker tournaments are a good time. I didn't play for money but it was a delightful romp. I was out 9th out of about 40 people. Rawr.

The interview went quite well I believe. I didn't realize that I was not the only one being interviewed today. Mwaha, I love the smell of competition anyway. I should know in the next few days if I got the job. If I do get it, my duties will consist mainly of taking care of plants. Watering, growing, watching, harvesting seed, etc. That stuff is interesting to me in the first place so when they add the prospect of a decent hourly wage it makes me wanna wet myself.

I'll keep whoever reads this updated cause I know you are as excited as I am.

So I have done it. I applied for a job. I most certainly don't like to work but I think I will enjoy this job. My interview for a research lab assistant is at 4pm today. Now I must go wash my pretty clothes so that I can be pretty.

So I have done it. I applied for a job. I most certainly don't like to work but I think I will enjoy this job. My interview for a research lab assistant is at 4pm today. Now I must go wash my pretty clothes so that I can be pretty.

"I wasted time, and now doth time waste me."

"When we are born, we cry, that we are come
To this great stage of fools."

"No, 'tis slander,
Whose edge is sharper than the sword, whose tongue
Outvenoms all the worms of Nile, whose breath
Rides on the posting winds, and doth belie
All corners of the world."

"If all the year were playing holidays,
To sport would be as tedious as to work."

I will have Shakespeare's babies.

Wine is the devil. I drank more than a pregnant teen last night.

Someone needs to abort me, stat.

So we started gaming last night in my room around 7:30. The night starts to get hazy when I went to nicks room and drank a bottle of wine with Lexi. I honestly don't remember anything after that besides throwing my guts up in the bathroom.

Good times.

OMFG ALIEN INVASION LOLOLOL

uuuuuugh i studied with kate and jeff for about 7 hours last night. Oh well, tibetan monks are gonna shake their asses tonight so I hope that goes well.

So I ordered some posters the other day to add some life to my wrist-slasher of a room. I ordered a wonderful 36 inch periodic table that's all colorful and another big poster with DNA and RNA on it. I win.

I bought some cabernet from Jeff and it's amazing.

Jeff and Nick and I just got back from the berg. We had dinner with his incredibly insane cousin and her friend. She had half a margarita and was pretty well toast.

Next weekend is tiger rally and parents weekend. Parents weekend is kinda retarded but tiger rally is probably the greatest thing in the world. Last weekend I went with Jon and Lexi and Kristen and her friends and had one of the most amazing times ever. This weekend should be even better. I will have money for more drinks. That = a good time.

I'm so pumped for drunken Mario Party that I could play leap frog with a unicorn.

Wow this has been an interesting night. I went uptown to wait for the band and the tiger rally to begin. I started pregaming on my way there so I was doing pretty good. The band got there and I was swept into the berg where I found Lexi, Kristen, and Jon. From there we went to Deja Vu which was fucking amazing as usual. I met 2 of Kristen's friends and they were fun. We must have danced for a solid 2 hours or more. We all managed to obtain drinks. Some of us had more than others! ;) These 'others' had to be carried all the way back to the dorm. :D It was fun.

After dropping everyone off and parting ways, I ran into Andy with his 2 friends, Andrew and Catherine. Catherine was a bit smashed like all of us... she was just more so. It was quite fun. I told them to come back to my room and hang out for awhile. That was entertaining. I must do this again! :D

Wet Hot American Summer... It's an amazing movie and you should watch it.

growl

So here I am. 4am. I cannot sleep at all. I go to bed at night and wake up about 2 or 3 hours into it, my head swimming with every idea and worry that I can muster. Everything right now is so crazy that I'm having trouble staying focused. Emotionally I'm a wreck and I can't seem to do much about it.

I wish I had amnesia.

bob saget...

Friday night Kristen, Kate, Nick, Jeff, and I all walked around downtown. We played circle of death in Nick's room and got pretty sloshed. Then we went to Kristen's dorm and watched the movie Rounders. I think the movie was about 5 hours long. Jeff drank about 35 oz of SoCo so he wasn't feeling too great.

Saturday night Kate and Jeff and I tried to find some dance clubs but we failed to make up our minds on which one to go to. We ended up hanging out in Nick's room, drinking, and watching videos of the tourettes guy. We watched Lucky Number Sleven. It was a good movie and many laughs were had. After the movie we walked Kate home and ran into a guy named Tyler that was extremely interested in tunnels that were supposedly under the quad that secret societies guarded.

Today is Sunday and Kate and Jeff and I hit the saunas and pool for awhile. It was quite refreshing. Plaza 900 was our next stop and we stuffed our faces. I liked it.

I am so lethargic feeling today.

Rawr.

I need a ticket to the next trip to the vacuum of space, please.

I like this poem.

Johnny was a chemist's son
but Johnny is no more.
For what Johnny thought
was H₂O was H₂SO₄.

Bleh

This weekend was a blur. So much craziness. It was fun but I sure as hell should have done some homework. I'm just struggling to keep my head above water here... welcome to college I guess!

I've been trying to do my homework for the past few hours. My head is absolutely running amok. I can't focus or concentrate on anything. I'm learning so much in all my classes and it just feels like I'm wading through a mixture of information when I sit down to study or do homework. My mind seems to always be distracted by itself. The stresses are building on all sides and I've gotta come up with a strategy fast.

PARTAYYYYY

Tonight was wonderful! Jeff and I met some of his girlfriends at the 9th st. artisan. It's a coffee shop type place that has live music. It was a good time and I met alot of cool people. Jeff chugged a 4-shot of espresso. I thought he was gonna die.

Around 10:20 I left there to go to deja vu for the tiger rally. I get there and they won't let me in cause I'm not 21. So I walk around town and give Kate some texts. She told me that the crew was at the berg. By the time I got there the band was walking down the sidewalk with about 300 other people. I found Kate and Lexi and Mike and John(?). We got to deja vu and they marked our hands with big black x's. The party inside was AWESOME. The music was great, the dj was great and it was even complete with drunken fat girls dancing on the platform thingy. I'd say that there were about 400 people in there. It was soooo very tight. Soooo very loud. I think we might have danced in there for about 45 minutes. I found Jennifer there (from biochem) and she introduced me to her friend Allie. They're pretty cool so I made a fool out of myself and danced with everyone. I'm good at being a fool! :D

Screetch from saved by the bell was there to make some encouraging comments.
"Stick it in their pooper!"
"Teabag Old Miss!"
"Bend 'em over!"
These are just some of the enlightening comments he made. Wow... what a dork.

Everyone followed the band out after they played inside the club. We walked allll the way back to lowry mall where Lexi jumped in the fountain and got us wet. Silly lady. After that we walked to their dorm and parted ways!

Blue Ball

I learned how to play racquet ball tonight. It's fucking insanity! I sucked really bad but I love to smash balls. Yes... I do.

THE NOBLE DUEL!

Fencing was cool tonight. I learned how to stand and how to move back and forth! My ass is kinda hurts as well! OH! and I got to poke a guy... Alot. It's gonna rock and I aspire to be the best here!
Justin and I are going to buy our own equipment and fence out in public. I want to be infront of brady or something and yell at him, "I CHALLENGE YOU TO A DUEL, GOOD SIR!". and he would be like "I ACCEPT YOUR CHALLENGE!". Good times.

Wow, fun.

So yes, this is a new journal for myself. Maybe I will use it to record personal accounts of college life. Let's get started shall we?

Last night goes a lil something like this:
Jeff and I decide to sit outside and have a cigar. After much deliberation we choose to sit on the top of the Virginia Ave parking garage. As we ride the elevator up we hear tribal drums. It sounded as if it was coming from the uppermost tier of the garage so naturally we followed it. On the top was a group of people sitting in a small circle while one guy played a drum and another played a ukelele. We hailed them and said that we had to follow the wonderful melodies. They let us sit with them and in short time we sorta became part of the group. After some laughs and thrown bottles everyone decided to go to hitt st market and get some foods. All 10 or so of us crammed into one little table outside and talked about the week's nightly activities and such. At around 12:30 most of them decided to go to sleep. Jeff and I walked back to the dorm. He got a phone call saying that there were guys at Wolpers singing songs with 'King Tut hats' on. We got there as fast as we could but they dispersed when we got there. We tracked them to the 3rd floor and visited their dorm. I guess that every wednesday night at 11 a bunch of guys sing really loud songs outside. Silly songs, I might add. It was a good time.

We are so pumped because the people we met first invited to dance parties at their dorms.
oh hell yes