Last Chance!

I have an appointment with Dr. Collins tomorrow.  I'm eager to hear what she has to say about my relapse.  I really think that my problem comes from dopamine problems.  That was my first hypothesis over a year ago but now it really makes sense.  I think I'll call the mental health center and see if I can get another appointment with Dr. Blount before the one I have scheduled so that I can tell him, too.  I want to try Wellbutrin.  At this point I'm pretty serious about all this.  If that doesn't work then I'm done with all this bullshit.  My life is already shot to hell and it's the last chance I'm giving myself to make it.  I can't keep on doing this stupid nonsense forever.  Lately I've just been frustrated and a bit mad at all of it.  I'm stressed out about the lack of progress I've made and it causes me to see things in black and white.  I'll do ok with new meds or I'm out of here.  I'm done with all the in between shit.