Wow, I'm entering a journal while I'm ____________ I thought I'd put a long underscore there to emphasize the time it took me to pull myself up off the floor to resume this dialogue. I am way drunk. WOW SPECIAL TIME FOR ME BLOGGING. That was sarcastic. I had to litterally pull myself up off the floor to anser my cell phone. It was in my pocket but I was too sad of a person to NOT DRINK AND NOT bE DUMB AS SHIT SO AS TO NOT BE ABLE TO USE MY LEGS>. Fuck. I'll continue this tomorrow with very little prevoius knowledge of what I am now. I'll be embarassed tomorrow, unfortunately. I may even delete 90% of this post liiek I usually do when I find that My drunk self has expressed itrself to an extent that I am uncomfortable with.
I'm a sad dude. I like peopl.......PERSON". but I am sooooooo very uneducated anymore. I used to be good at dating because I knew the social norms and I could put on a happy face and fake it 'till I made it. I still do this, unfortunately. I don't want to. I spent 2 years with Allie doing what I thought was normal and only a year.5 that I broke up with her did I realize what I had done. I could have been myself. I was afraid. I fucked up . I don't want to think about it. It is what drove me to the end... I LIKE BIRDS LET'S FOCUS ON THAT.l
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