Oh boy! Them Frands!

Apparently I only like to post things while drunk.  That's fine.  When I'm drunk I have excellent proofreading skills.  I am indebted to my Chrome's suggestions.  I love that you all ended up at my house tonight!  We'll show that Ernie's who we be. xxooxsxoo xxooxoxxoxxoxxxx   xoxooxox xx  xxoxo  

Guess what?

I did my best to make sure things went ok.  We dated for awhile and had a good time.  I know how to look out for my avoidant behavior and I did my best.  I think I handled everything as well as I could but that doesn't mean that things ended ok.

When I first told her that it wasn't working out for me things were rough.  We went to brunch with her dad and step-mom one day and everything was ok as far as I was concerned.  She had been emphasizing how much she wanted me to meet her parents from day one.  That threw up some red flags but I always grant people the benefit of the doubt.  She is a great person that struggles greatly with anxiety and I have so much empathy but I just couldn't make a real emotional connection.  I tried so hard and put myself out there but nothing developed and that is just the way that dating works.  After meeting her dad for brunch she sent me a message on facebook.  I didn't get it until a few hours later and didn't feel the need to respond.  It was then that I decided to see how long she could go without me constantly providing feedback.  It was 23 hours later that she said in a message,
"aren't you even the slightest bit interested in how I am feeling?

• or are your video games so important that you'd just forget about me"
• That was when I knew that I was completely done.  I had known earlier that it wasn't going to work out and so I decided to tell her that I just wasn't feeling the way I should for it to continue.  After that she came to my house to talk it out.  I explained my position and always made sure that I was respectful to her and honest about my feelings.  The position that I maintain is that I just didn't feel that connection that I know to be indicative of a long-lasting relationship.  She seemed to be ok with this and she left.  Two hours later she showed up quite distraught asking me to reconsider.  After explaining myself again she seemed ok.  
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• We continued to talk online for a couple of days and I helped her understand her feelings.  It ended up with her accusing me of ruining the relationship because 1) she introduced me to the game Amnesia, and 2) I wasn't over Allie.  When she said both of those things I knew she was trying to make up problems that caused the relationship to fail.  I explained to her that sometimes people aren't compatible no matter what they do.  This is what I had tried to explain for the few days preceding this but I wasn't understood.  When she said those things I said that I was done and asked her to never come to my house again or speak to me.
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• I didn't want to be that abrasive but I told her that the relationship was starting to hurt me even after we'd broken up.  That is why I decided to end the communication.  I really like her as a person but I feel like we are on different levels.  I tried to explain that and I went as far as I could.
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• Sometimes things just suck!  
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