I had planned on this being a quiet night but I am always mistaken. Alex, Elliot, Gunnar, Kayleigh, and Ricky came over. I had about 5 beers and smoked a cigar on the deck. This was around 11pm and I was really prepared to go to sleep but then everyone poured into my house. Don't get me wrong, these are are my favorite people and I couldn't ask for a better crowd but I just wasn't up to it tonight.
Annie loaned me 2 Studio Ghibli movies today! I spent lots of time loading up a flash drive of hers full of good music. I hope she loves it! She's wonderful. :D
I had a therapy session today and I have another tomorrow at 9am. Eh. I talked a lot today. My therapist said that a lot of what I was describing was similar to Asperger's but she wouldn't diagnose me with that yet and since she still had little evidence. Weird. I know I'm messed up but I hope I am recovering. I actually feel attraction to someone now; the first time in about 2 years. I'm pretty excited about that since my emotions are all fucked up. We also talked about how it's highly possible that I have never felt empathy for people. I desperately want to feel connected to people but I simply don't have the ability right now. Shit. I need to get better or else everything is for naught.
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