We shall.

Shall we have a drunk post?  We shall.  Let's make it short 'cause I need my sleep.  Nora and Kate and I saw Inception.  Needless to say I drank A LOT before and during.  Amazing movie.  Afterwards we went to Eastside and listened to horrible bands made of noise.  Matt K, my new roomie, showed up and we went to El Rancho and then home.  Oh!  I also saw Rachael and Nick.  Whatever!  Anyway, Matt talked about Annie tonight and of course my current roommates and I were all ears.  Probably because I was drunk last night with Mals talking about relationships... Jonna said, "When do we get to meet Annie?" and my response was, "Never!!!"  and hers, "Aww why not!?" and me, "It just won't work.  She is with someone else."  Ohhhhhhh--- was the general response.  It's ok.  Matt K said tonight that her and Matt B were "scarily" perfect for each other.  That's interesting to me because I have also described Annie to all my friends as, "She's a female version of me.  We are scarily alike."  I say that a lot.  Sad!  But life is turning up lately.  I know I won't be with her but that's fine I guess.  I would love to be but that's how things happen.  Nothing can be great all the time.  I can't erase my feelings and I won't try.  I am just glad that I have them at all.  I won't pursue anything with her because I have too much respect.  The main thing that I have learned from all this is that I will not settle.  I have been so alone lately that I have wanted to just settle for someone I know and trust; someone safe.  I can't do that.  That's not me.  I have been on the look-out for the perfect lady for years and I need to keep that vision.  Annie is in that vision but just out of reach.  I'm not saying that it's forever hopeless because what is forever?  What does "never" mean to beings that can never grasp that concept?  I will keep looking for someone to share myself and my adventures with that I deem worthy.  Until then, I keep sailin' like Bobby Darin.