Undulations!

I had my first therapy session yesterday afternoon.  It went well.  We basically just laid out the ground work on everything that's wrong with me.  I have an appointment again next week.

Mallory and I have been hanging out a lot lately.  We had lunch and coffee on Saturday for about 6 hours.  It was good to talk to a friend about everything especially since we're both having the same problems.  She's got social anxiety and relationship issues as well.  I hope we get to move in together.

Days have been generally positive I guess.  I was fine today but since about 6pm I've been pretty depressed.  I'm tired of these undulations of bland emotions.  When I'm happy it's fake.  When I'm depressed it's distinct.  Things are better for me since leaving the hospital but they certainly aren't great.  I still don't have any interest in anything.  It seems like I have the capacity to live a fulfilling life but right now it's impossible.  I'm not happy, it's just that my head is being held above water by my medications and counseling.  Life.  Ugh.  So much work for so little gain.