Ugh!

God, I feel like a neurotic high school girl.  It seems that I'm now the one that worries about the emotional connection.  Such an opposite!  I was always the one that wanted less contact and emotional connection and now I'm the only one that wants it!  What an unjust world!  An inauspicious day washes over the normal and turns it to opposite.  You become what you were, and wrong the rights you up and left.  How sad it is to revive your bygone negatives only to have them show you that your progressions ultimately end in regressions!  Quite circular.  I hate falling into that endless circle. I have come so far only to lose my balance.  I am tired of this particular beginning.  Lately, I've seen beyond the beginning.  It was enticing because of its purity and understanding.  As I inspected it in detail it shrank from my touch.  Every advance was met with a retreat.