Memoir

I've just realized a significant facet of my depression.  I am afraid that I won't be able to be close to someone unless we both share a common recent past.  Allie and I shared a lot of college and I find it difficult to recreate that with someone else.  I feel that everything I am is the product of the past four years and anyone outside my close circle of friends just won't understand me.  I know this is irrational but it was something that made me super depressed back in my crazy phase.  Now that I see it I hope I can reverse it.  It just seems like so much to start something as serious with someone new.